Waiting for the one ...

Now, this is a touchy subject and I am ready for a new relationship but not just with anyone! This time I’m not jumping into a risk, I’m gonna be patient and wait for the RIGHT person! You're probably thinking, but Bethany the ‘right’ person doesn’t exist! But I think you're wrong, and hey that’s just my opinion, so think what you want boo, I ain’t judging! 

Seriously though… this time in isolation has given me a bracket to think! In a good and bad way don’t get me wrong! But for this section of my life, I need it! I’ve really started to come to terms with what I want and no it’s not about looks! Yeah, they can help, but I’m not all about that! I refuse to get myself into another toxic relationship because they said one right thing against the many wrongs! I was hurting and I am hurting but I am also now HEALING! <3 

Time to focus on what I want ….. I want a relationship that is equal-sided, I don’t want to be the only one putting in all the effort anymore! It was draining my energy trying to fight for something that was lost! I want a relationship with someone who gets me! Everyone has something going on, doesn’t matter what your background is, everyone has something! I want someone to listen to me, someone I can open up to about anything without the fear of being judged or laughed at!  At the same time, I want someone who can open up to me too! I just want to help! If you don’t talk you lose that connection! I want someone to be honest with me and not lie or talk behind my back! Just be honest and trustworthy. I want someone who will hold my hand in public without the fear of being with me! I want someone to be proud of me, proud to be with me! I want someone who is also my best friend! Someone who means the world to me! I want someone who wants to spend time with me, but also can spend time on their own! I don’t want pointless continuous messages, I want meaningful ones every now and again! So when I see their name pop up on my phone I smile and never lose that sense of happiness :))  I want someone who loves me for me <3