Time to start giving a S*** about yourself !

 I've spent many years being a people pleaser because that's how I was brought up! The thing is with society is it's ridiculously hard to fit in, every day there is a new trend or vicious cycle of people putting each other down just to make themselves feel better or take that anger and fragility out on someone just so they can stop hurting for a second. You see we are all in the gutter, we are all suffering, so why do we take it out on each other?  Why can't we just support and motivate each other? My life has been a rollercoaster and maybe that's why I am such a people pleaser, I know how rough times can get! I've lived in those moments and I would never wish it upon anyone else! Ever! The pain is unbearable and I don't want anyone to experience that so if it means that I get hurt in the process of helping them, that's okay, I want them to be happy and free from misery! But now I'm in the lowest place I have been in my lifetime and I'm only eighteen! You must think I'm crazy, falling apart this young but what would you suspect, society certainly doesn't help and we are trapped, unable to get out because of a pandemic. Our childhoods are being taken away from us (mine already was) no wonder why we are sad all the time and think we don't deserve love or success. Our whole lives are on screens, no wonder why it's killing us! We stare at these beautiful people on social media, the news and many other platforms, ultimately tearing ourselves apart, to non-existence. We cry ourselves to sleep, our anxiety is through the roof even with simple tasks like going to buy food, we can't live like this anymore! We need to come together and support each other. I recently started a business and the company in which I am apart of strives for personal development and to focus on ourselves for once so we can love ourselves again. This has been the best thing I've done, I'm slowly starting to accept me for me and stop caring what other people think! After all, why should I let their opinions affect me, it's not my opinion? If when I'm asleep I can dream the greatest things that I think aren't possible, why when I open my eyes do I let peoples opinions affect my decisions! If I can dream it, I can do it! I will never stop until I achieve my ambitions, I will not die with the music still in my ears! 

Ralph Waldo Emerson once said, "What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us". You see true beauty is within us, not on the surface, we need to love and appreciate ourselves before its too late. Same goes for peoples opinions, yes words hurt, but the reality is they will forget they even said what they said because something else will come into their lives which is more important. So block out those haters, they don't deserve you! If they are a true friend they will make sure your happy doing what you have decided and support you the best they can. There's the difference between a real friend and a fake one! Fake ones don't want you to be happy! The real ones do, and they are the ones you want to keep in your life. Its time to detox yourself and get rid of the toxic people, for me that means family too. I would certainly rather have one or two real friends that would do anything for me than tons of fake ones! It's time to be the main character of your life and not the side character! Live life to the fullest because time is precious and you never know how long you have left! Live like it's your last day every day!